To be enslaved by you...

weep for the illusioned faith
grab your AK-47 and join the angry mob
hide your inadequacies and keep them safe
present to them perverted truth

sneer at my maculate self
grown callused by constant natter
bespangled in sequinned hell
pretend to be in discourse with the mad hatter
just so i can avoid your bulshit


people are swayed towards popular consensus , make up something about me
to distract them from your inadequacies and insecurities.. Then you'll be happy...
then you'll get what you want.. right....

This girl ah like that one ah, good ah, and then hengcute ehh.. wah lau whey.. like that where can.. i very the jeles.. Wah piang! so chio one to the very max! haha never say cannot right? cannot chio mah? but not chio as me because we in the chio club in school! because i am baby chio(cos i more kawaii mah) and then she sporty chio(cos she a bit flat one)haha.. When she last time come to class, i thought she model liaozz.. wah but dunno la see how oso i got her now.. so like that can ah i like one.. She actually quite popular oso in school leh.. but now see who got her one? of course me la.. Wah lau still dunno..



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LOVE IS HERE!

(translate = im a superior motherfucker or at least i think i am and you guys deserve to rot under my feet because i got the hottest girl in school and you guys can kiss my shiny inflated ass! Im actually posting this testimonial for my own self-promotion so better read it twice or thrice!)


-although i deserve to be jabbed in the arm with an overdose of tranquilizer for posting this testimonial, you guys will love me for it cos its just so fucking sincere! Ke'ai eh!



Now one that will appeal to the rap freestyler/ religious zealot in you..

aku ngan dia dah lama berkawan
kita in the club beb!
group dikir lain tak boleh lawan
masok neraka lah diorang nyer nasib!

diorang tak ingat tau hari akhirat
(eh kata members, sama sama ah menum todi dok)
takde adat sebab tak nak join dikir barat
(aku ngah buat kerja ngan chicks ah, jangan sibok!)

wo wo! in the club! wo wo! check it out!
wo wo! diorang nak have fun je! wo wo! sapa nak preserve malay tradition cam kita?
wo wo wo wo wo!!!

To all my homies!!!!


Happy about the testimonial feature in Friendster.com, ive decided to write one or two that applies to everybody so i can just cut and paste.. anybody can if they want to really..

i knew a girl
she stole the stars
left the world bereft of hope
invaded by a pervasive anxiety of the future

all triumph over the past
fade away as feeble memories
constellations fed our mind with dreams
now decrepit, in misfortunate stasis

our aspirations die in a government basement
comply and affirm do not meander
we are all expendables, perishables
do not bother with my mental tempests
let the doleful hymns waft through the ash columns of my escapist sanctuary..

"Ill fade away into a mere cipher, transparent in this stratification of teen society"
what everybody is afraid of?

Ive always had this condition, so that rules out it being retribution, divine,karmic or otherwise. The condition being myasthenic, how all my life ive always wondered why i couldnt look at the world's beauty properly, how i couldnt experience the visual treats.. Ive always envied those with large eyes, wishing that i could just get a minute in to just look at life through those eyes.. i know how everybody always wished they were someone else, but i only wanted somebody else's eyes, for once being able to open my eyes fully and just look at stuff like a normal person would.. So i often retreated in my own escapist sanctuary, created through the written and drawn form of art.. The diagnosis revealed that a big part of the problem lies in my blood, i had too much antibodies.. As a result, they attacked and screwed up the chemical connections between the nerve and muscle.. Its funny to think that something thats supposed to help you can destroy you.. The glee i got from being exempted for most of the immunisation clinics like the BCG especially with the ominous several month-ed prelude to it was shortlived because its the same condition that will bother me endlessly through the years.. Being "over-protected" meant that i'd be less susceptible to illness and of course not needing the numerous immunisations, but it also caused sudden fatigue to my bodily muscles(sometimes being uncontrollable like the jaw hanging open) and the chronic eyelid dysfunction.. The diagnosis sounds like im some kind of homo sapien superior, but the effects made me feel sub-human..By the age of sixteen, i had grown blase to the somewhat omnipresent question of why i look sleepy all the time.. the psychologically painful condition was there all these years, it was just bearable, and now when it becomes this bad, my perpetual denial of being part of sub-human kind had to end as the doctor shoved reality into my face.. In the words of a myasthenic, "My mother always said the key to success in life was to open your eyes and keep your mouth shut, but now i cant even do both" a submerged destiny that has met with its tragic promise..

an example how it has degenerated me to a gollum-grade psycho..

«Ninguna mente extraordinaria está exenta de un toque de demencia»

volume maximum, validate this declaration
aristotlean logic for motivational provision
"no extraordinary mind is free of a touch of insanity"
but only the noble for heraldry
i bear arms only to police

turn to us who spout incomprehensible gibberish
exploit the masses by being rhetorically coquettish
then sic the moralist hordes upon us
play on the warped meaning of trust
berate us, for being artfully knavish
stop us! our nefarious schemes
accuse us, of sinister machinations
pigeonhole us with the demented abominations

turn away, never look to the ninja muscle
join dikir barat instead to be normal
philistines , society's cancer
plebeian disgrace, traitor to the supreme emperor

pseudo-righteous emblazonment on your faces
all just facades,hypocrisy and double-standards
ill kill you all, bring me my tommy gun
shoot holes in your alcoholic gullet
here mr feigned piousness, bite my heathen bullet!
just kidding, ill just burn your mother
oh its just as bad? but she looks like moses lim in drag
maybe just lather you till she kowtows to me and begs
hahaha.. sadistic fantasy, dont mind me..
ill morph back from my bestial form, dont worry...