"You are just sore that you did not make it the last time!"

Do those words instill fear and evoke penitence from you? If not.. then let me rub my buttcheeks together to imitate the sound that came out from the mouth which said those lines… Yes.. truly FRIGHTENING!
Stumped by the boldness of that comment and wittiness of the one who mouthed it, I had no choice but to nod and agree… Its true im sore… but its only half right.. in fact less than that… Im more sore by the way that he treated me, in fact many people like me before he saw the need for us… Only a bully with authority out on a power trip can force people to do stupid stuff like *actual events - trick an innocent student that the way to treat a cut lip is to suck on a blade of grass in an attempt to attain respect and a 'joker' image in front of the rest… - inadvertently forcing the quartermaster to quit by ordering the poor fella to clean up mud in the toilet… And when there is an obvious need for us, a stready stream of butt-licking occurs…. Which of course is normal everyday fare for the "elite" few which are in favor of his favoritism… How can you not be sore when cronyism takes the place of meritocracy in the selection system… How can you not be sore when you have shed 'blood,sweat and tears'to possess the ability that you have now only to find out ball sucking puts others above you, how ball sucking makes up for the need for innate and trained ability… Sometimes when things are not in logic, when things don't make sense… shouldn't we refrain from blind obedience and speak out whats on our mind? Why should we conform to a fascist mentality? It might be interpreted as a lack of respect on my part but its all honesty and constructive criticism… I don't hate the soccer team… I just hate the system that brings it down year after year… I mean 2nd some years ago(before the "saviour" stepped in) to of insignificant rank last year? It must be flawed right? It just proves 4 things..:- 1) SOME players were plain crap 2)some of the tactics were plain crap 3)degenerative influence by the coach that cant be helped 4)you can imitate the sounds made at the sidelines by rubbing your buttcheeks together.
So, by resorting to nasty jabs in the ribs with that comment, he has substantiated my claim to him being a buttpirate…

The retreat to Johor Bahru Sofitel Palm Resort was fun and a splendid idea if you asked me.. I truly had fun there and much of it was self generated… Playing pranks on unsuspecting 'corridor-dwellers' regardless of which campus they were from and whether we knew them or not.. hah! And that was where the 'Ninja Muscle' was born… Me and Zainal realised our innate superhuman abilites after a tiresome morning of protecting the world from the mat confident type.. Donning the awesome Ninja headgear, we suddenly sprouted six-pack abdominals and toned pectorals.. In stealth we scoured the resort grounds for targets, our well-defined bodies glistening in the dim lighting of the narrow corridors… Careful to avoid Ivan Lim's patrol routes and creeping up to our 'prey' like leopards and striking like cobras… haha… what a way to glorify our immature pranks! Haha… but what matters most is that I , no we..had fun! Creating catchy spontaneous songs during workshops and forcing others to join in the 'doowop'… haha… Getting light -headed from the ninja missions and forced to retire to bed and all…. Ahhh…. Reminiscing about those days will bring giggles upon giggles… and damn… didn't even remember to check out the girls from the other campus… since we were so busy playing pranks on the guys… haha…. Ahhhh….(fading sigh brought about by nostalgi

for all the ppl who led me on... for all who gave me false hope... this is my poetic tribute to you...

search my static existence
for wretched hope
find it only to destroy it
fodder and fuel for your smiling heartbeat

i didnt know i was falling prey to a curse
when i saw your eyes as burning embers
in the darkness of uncertainty
as if it was said in some divine decree

initially liquorice hate as bait
cradled into false solace
then rendered helpless in a state of limbo
denied both heaven and hell, in abysmal sorrow

wait till i collapse from chronic burns
with just passive aggression left from dismemberment
and they say freedom comes from within
but my innate ability breeds corrupt sins