as a follow through on that last piece.. is beauty more of a curse than a blessing then? in that aspect... i guess its more of a social-booster, people have a better impression of good-looking people rather than not-so-good-looking people... hehe... as a victim of this, i admit that i know how it is when people like you just because you said something nice to them and when u say how they got it all wrong, they accuse you of leading them on... haha... and how every member of the opposite sex you talk to is your new make-out partner and how big a flirt you are... and feeling so violated when you are being ogled at by girls and guys alike.. haha... and how when you walk past a group of people who mainly dont favor you, you get comments like... "dia ingat dia lawar/handsome sangat pe!" haha... seriously guys... people like to pick on you just because you possess beauty, if not in your eyes, then in theirs... and of course... you get thrown into a category with all the other beautiful people.. where you get compared, evoking lines such as.. "eh si dia ni lagi lawar dari si dia tu" when all you want is to fake your way through tertiary education... and how people rush into a relationship with you only to come out scarred when u dont really share their enthusiasm... then u lose their friendship, in extreme cases, "boycotted"... some of them i really do enjoy their company and how they seem to appreciate mine... and if you do, just stay with me... the time between sweet mushy lines such as "you are the best anybody could have" to "i want a break up" is incredibly short... if i dont wanna go official with ya straight away... its not because im just flirting and have other girls on the side... its because yeah it sounds like a damned cliche but love needs to develop from friendship first... and if you force it, i can only be myself, i still treat u as a friend to which im asaulted by these teeth-grinding lines such as.. "then like that for what go steady!" im doing the best i can from what ive learnt... but you dont want that and from the lack of understanding between us, cracks occur and you break away... most probably not even wanting to talk to me... i think it takes a lot of maturity to see things the way i do... and i wont hate you for the break up... i wont go general and hate girls cos of this break up... i wont go GSF(girls schmirls foundation) and denounce the need for them... if you enjoyed my company and humor before... why shouldnt you still enjoy it now? i didnt change... i still wanna spend time with you cos u were something like a best friend... and i respect couples who have broken up and still treat each other right... its cruel and it doesnt make sense that you must be enemies just because it did not work out... we were just so close a minute ago and now youre bad mouthing me to your friends and calling me a jerk or a loser? and then theres the added bonus of making fun of me with your new boyfriend who could also fall victim to the same shit... hahah... think about it... the structure of it all does not make sense to me... but then again... im just an "immature bastard" who "charms girls asses off"... hahahhah... im sorry if i offended anyone... im just stating a point... theres no love lost... cheerios...