me and the other "soccer rejects" decided to play soccer today... the previous day, mr ram forbade us to join the soccer team for training! He even chased us away with his annoying new catch phrase.." bye bye!" (say it in an obnoxious, heavy accented and over-confident way)... then we played with the year ones who were already playing there... and we joined them, apparently they seem to be greatly impressed by us... the comments that followed included, "wah, you guys in soccer ah?", "wah you guys good siak!', "wah, you guys have been playing since young ah?", "wah, skill siak!".. haha... my ego expanded ten fold today... we went home with a smile...a very big one... and once again... i was asked that ever so favorite question.. "oh, why arent you in the school soccer team?"... i hate this question... to guys and people who have watched me play... i say... "oh apparently im not good enough...", every word dripping with sarcasm... everytime id draw a laugh... they'll know the damned coach is a blind asshole more interested in someone who is, i quote, "shows respect to the coach and captain", "not a primadonna" etc and more horse shit.. I wouldnt be all that if they were'nt so lousy in the first place... haha... And when girls(mostly) ask me innocently why im not in the soccer team... i be rendered speechless... and then i wax lyrical about the issue of me not being selected because the coach... to them, it comes across as sour grapes... i see that look in their eyes... i hate that... it makes me sad and angry.... the only way i could prove to them is to play a match in front of them.. haha... but that'll be so desperate... and such a way to be a loser... damn... haha... then ill be presenting to them the fact that i was in a club to subtly say.. "hey im good ok! if not i wont be selected by a club!" haha... i dont wanna be thought of as a sore loser... i really dont... i guess this will haunt me for as long as i live....